Living Forwards

It's interesting how things come to be. One little thought or question can blossom in to a lifestyle, a business, a relationship, a future. A little over a year ago I had such a question: How can I eat enough of the right foods to fuel my active lifestyle and breastmilk production?

It's not an easy question to answer. When I was about 10 I decided to quit eating meat. I was (and still am) terrified of birds. All shapes and sizes. One day, as I was cutting in to my plate of chicken, it dawned on me what I was putting in to my body and I had the most vivid picture of a live chicken flapping it's wings around inside of my belly. I put the fork down and proclaimed that I was now a vegetarian. Being 10 years old and living in a family of carnivores meant I usually ate cereal or pasta for every meal. I was not fueling my body. My eating habits slowly evolved and I added meat back in to my life as I exited high school.

Once I started having children, the topic of food choices reared it's head again. This time it was more than just my body and my personal wants/needs. It was about a tiny human growing inside of me. I didn't really think too much about it until I was breastfeeding my second child, Charlotte, and training for a half marathon. I was exhausted. Strung out. Starving. Thankfully my milk supply never dwindled, but I was incredibly worried about what would happen if it did. I remember talking to Brad and lamenting that fact that I couldn't find some kind of food/fitness tracker that catered specifically to breastfeeding mamas. I needed to know how much energy I was expending between running and yoga and breastfeeding in order to get it back to keep doing those things.

That little question lead me to research, which lead me to blogs, which lead me to the realization that if I really wanted as much information as I could gain about this topic (which is endlessly fascinating for me) I needed to go back to school. Enrolling in a Master's program for Nutrition Education and learning everything I can about how to nourish my body has helped me answer that one little question. It's also helped me realize the number of people who have similar questions without the tools to answer. 

Well I have them. Those answers. And I'm learning more every day. I can't keep all of it to myself. I started grad school with hopes of changing my eating habits and giving myself and my family a better outlook on food and nutrition. Now, I can't imagine not sharing that knowledge I've picked up with others. There's a lot I want to do to help and a lot I know I will do. 

Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards
— Kierkegaard

Only now, looking back, can I see that the path was there and I was on it all along.